Expectancy

by TANTAL

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The newborn album titled "Expectancy" - the next step in the band's evolution, opening new dimensions of musicians' creative work. The material is more thoughtful compositionally, mature and various, is at the junction of Progressive, Death, Gothic and Modern Metal.

Much attention is paid to the clean female vocal parties and "catching" melodies. Branded "tricks" - are still remain - superfast, but at the same expressive guitar solos performed in the best traditions of Dream Theater and Yngwie J.Malmsteen.

Lyrical concept: the protagonist' attempt to find the meaning of life, to find himself, to sort out their internal conflicts and find harmony with himself, which leads to desperation and destruction of all his hopes.

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released April 1, 2014

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Track Name: 1. Through The Years
Through The Years
(“Getting wiser than I was before”)

Looking through the years that have passed, pretending that I regret nothing.
I must apply myself in life. I’m searching for something...
I don’t know...
Always standing at the crossroad, choosing a path I will walk.
It is like a gamble that we can’t ignore...
And I play...

I’m weak to find myself, the reason for my life.
Remember who I used to be... still waiting for the helping hand.

Feeling lost and confused, tired of constant uncertainty that is hunting me.
Changes…look at me I’m not the man I used to be
Before…

I’m weak to find myself, the reason for my life.
Remember who I used to be...still waiting for the helping hand.
Remember who I used to be...still waiting for the helping hand.

I’m weak to find myself, the reason for my life.
Remember who I used to be...still waiting for the helping hand.
I have lost my way in life, in this maze I slowly die.

Childhood has ended and now I'm drowning in the sea called life.
Youth has no things to regret, but it’s time to think about
What I have done…

Am I another faceless shadow in the crowd?
Is there any reason for my life?
Am I another victim of deception?
Are there any answers to my questions?
Track Name: 2. Expectancy Pt.1 (Desert In My Soul)
Expectancy Pt.1 (Desert In My Soul)
(“The older we get, the less hope remains”)

I’m opening my eyes, removing dirt that blinds me.
It's now so crystal clear, the innocence has faded, the despair comes.

Burning… in the flame of fear.
Shocked…by the real world.
The burden deep inside of me
Is growing up and tearing me off.

The pointless, perfect clarity has taken away my haven.
The childlike vision has vanished. No hope…my life stands to fall.

Waiting…for the sign to bring.
Weakness...I’m falling on my knees.
The past slowly drifts away,
Oh how I wish to stay…there!

I’m feeling something new inside of me.
It’s leaving a desert in my soul.
The face of nothing now I see,
It’s burying my expectancy.

And now I am sinking in despair… sinking in despair.

I’m feeling something new inside of me.
It’s leaving a desert in my soul.
The face of nothing now I see,
It’s burying my expectancy.

This is another stage of growing up.
And things will never be the same again.
From day to day, year to year we live on, we’re getting older.
Time leaves no place for the slightest hope.

And now I am sinking in despair… sinking in despair.
Track Name: 3. Echoes Of Failures
Echoes Of Failures
(“Memories dance its sad dance”)

In times of solitude I turn to memories,
Sweep away dust from ruins of my past.
There is nothing I can do to change my faults.
In silence I whisper unsaid words…to you.

Take a little look back there are so many things undone
And what has done is all mistakes in which I drown.
I never said a world, never showed affection.
I stuck in my shell there is no connection.

I open my old but still bleeding wounds
And every time I ask myself: “What if I could…?”
I’m still hearing the sound of your cries
Memories canker us.

Frozen memories in which I have my life
Hurt me all these years that have passed by.
I regret deep inside my stone cold heart.

Echoes of failures like reflection in the looking-glass,
Echoes of failures chase us through our lives.

All wounds I caused now are mine and scars torn open,
I feel your grief, your pain. I thought I’ve coped with it.
But time doesn’t heal it and I can’t forgive myself.
Voices from the past are calling me again.

Frozen memories in which I have my life
Hurt me all these years that have passed by.
I regret deep inside my stone cold heart.

Echoes of failures like reflection in the looking-glass,
Echoes of failures chase us through our lives,
Spiraling through time, never know when you meet them.
Recollections of failures.
Keep them!
Track Name: 5. Nothing (Selfish Acts)
Nothing (Selfish Acts)
(“Do not expect something from nothing”)

If you look into my eyes you will see burning ashes of my life.
If you look into my soul you will find nothing at all…
Nothing at all!

Isolated by the wall of mine,
Drowning in sadness I cry.
There is stone instead of my heart, there is emptiness inside.
It will never be filled with the tears that silently fall down…

When all is said and done, your world is going down
And truth is turned into lie.
Desire without heart let our feelings die.
Too late for sorrow, too far we are now.

Dreams turn into dust and time passes fast,
Everything turns into nothing…with selfish acts.

Desperation suffocates me.
Choking I stare with empty eyes.
Everything without you is nothing,
If only I could turn back time.

We’ve lost everything and buried all our dreams.
My selfishness leaves nothing behind.
I’m slowly fading, no one can help me.
We can only regret the rest of our broken lives…until we die.
Track Name: 6. Pain That We All Must Go Through
Pain That We All Must Go Through…
(“The unexpected feeling comes today…so suddenly”)

Have you ever felt it? If not you will someday…
Expect the unexpected feeling witch another day will bring.
You’ll find yourself confined…you will
It’s another sip of life with bitter taste of…

…pain that eats me inside hurts everyday and bleeds me dry.

I feel I taste the bitterness of words that are as cold as ice.
It’s turning me inside out…
Beaten by pain that we all must go through…
It’s another sip of life with taste of...

…sorrow that eats me inside hurts everyday and bleeds me dry.

You can’t make all the pain you are feeling fade,
A heart is so easy to break. A life is so easy to take.
Never satisfied, it leaves nothing at all.
Drain the cup of sorrow to the dregs.

Life is filled with pain and sorrow
That stain our being and make us bleed.
Drained...Like leaves our souls fade away
Erased by the pain that we must go through...someday.
Track Name: 7. Expectancy Pt.2 (Despair)
Expectancy Pt.2 (Despair)
(“Empty days are passing by”)

…And now I’m sinking in despair
That has put out the candle of my hopes.
Sometimes I want to believe in what I do.
Getting wiser than I was before
I accept the fate that tears my soul.

I see the prospect of empty life
It is a burden I carry on my shoulders.
It’s time to wake up, no more dreams.
Life gets so hard to live.

Where is all I used to believe?
Where is all I used to live for?

I try to find out what troubles me -
State of confusion, self deprecation.
Will I ever understand why I fell all empty?

It took so long to realize.
I've spent so many years in questioning why.
My expectations have faded fast,
I wither nailed to the wall of life.

Fading away with every day
I chase my dreams and choose my way.
Learning to live I make my first mistakes,
Learning to live I feel growing despair.

Everything I knew was wrong.
All my hopes are broken.
Life is nothing for me anymore.
I don’t know what I search for…

All my life I’ve been waiting
For the sign to bring.
It took so long to realize
That it was in vain…
Track Name: 8. Under The Weight Of My Sorrow I Crawl
Under The Weight Of My Sorrow I Crawl
(“Life gets so hard to live”)

I count empty days and stare to nowhere,
So tired to search for shelter…endless sorrow.
My spirit is broken.

Another day I live unknowing where to go,
Another useless try, another vague hope…
Another vague hope…

Pointless life…this is my burden,
I crawl on my knees.
Haven’t anything to climb to.
I go to the abyss.

Loosing and finding again, this is eternal fight.
I need to gain control over my life.
Journey of the fugitive mind.
I want explore the boundaries but fear embraces me.
And now I blame myself for lost opportunities…
Lost opportunities…

Pointless life…this is my burden,
I crawl on my knees.
Haven’t anything to climb to.
I go to the abyss.

One day I built the wall, and now I realize that this was my grave.
There were only you outside to help me live my life.
Please, lend me helping hand.

And walls are getting closer, and time passes fast,
There won’t be the second chance.
Release me from the past. I’m pleading…pleading, God...but silence is outside.

Years go to the nothingness…
Under the weight of my sorrow I crawl…
Track Name: In The End pt.2 (Epitaph) Acoustic Version
In the end Pt.2 (Epitaph)

Too weak, lost in the world’s false,
Isolated, rejected with your different mind.
Swallowed by the material world…

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference..."

Outcast, life has passed in exile
Misunderstanding is all you see
Hidden from the real world
They cut your wings; the end is here

Oppressed, driven to the last extreme. Isolated, rejected.
You found no savior left in life.
It’s all over now…

…life has passed in exile
Misunderstanding is all you see
Hidden from the real world
They cut your wings; the end is here
Loneliness, you die in silence
There’s no helping hand
In the end decision's been made
Your life was just beginning of the end

Hope for the better life has faded away.
Sin has enslaved mankind, nothing can help.
Naive illusions have turned into dust.
Broken. Now I'm just fragment of the past.

Outcast, life has passed in exile
Misunderstanding is all you see
Hidden from the real world
They cut your wings; the end is here
Loneliness, you die in silence
There’s no helping hand
In the end decision's been made
Your life was just beginning of the end
Track Name: 8. Under The Weight Of My Sorrow I Crawl (Alternative Version with Sofia Vocal)
Under The Weight Of My Sorrow I Crawl
(“Life gets so hard to live”)

I count empty days and stare to nowhere,
So tired to search for shelter…endless sorrow.
My spirit is broken.

Another day I live unknowing where to go,
Another useless try, another vague hope…
Another vague hope…

Pointless life…this is my burden,
I crawl on my knees.
Haven’t anything to climb to.
I go to the abyss.

Loosing and finding again, this is eternal fight.
I need to gain control over my life.
Journey of the fugitive mind.
I want explore the boundaries but fear embraces me.
And now I blame myself for lost opportunities…
Lost opportunities…

Pointless life…this is my burden,
I crawl on my knees.
Haven’t anything to climb to.
I go to the abyss.

One day I built the wall, and now I realize that this was my grave.
There were only you outside to help me live my life.
Please, lend me helping hand.

And walls are getting closer, and time passes fast,
There won’t be the second chance.
Release me from the past. I’m pleading…pleading, God...but silence is outside.